I just wanted to introduce myself in hopes I'm welcome in this community. My name is Lauren and I'm 26-yrs-old. I was dx'd with anorexia at the age of 14 and struggled with it for about 8 yrs. I've been in recovery for some time, although I still have a few issues with body image and such. I eat really well now and don't display any anorexic tendancies anymore. I want to stay recovered, esp. for the sake of my daughter (and husband).
I was reading a friends journal this morning. She has been trying to lose a few pounds for the swimsuit season. She didn't need to. She didn't resort to anorexia or bulimia, nor to any of the other unhealthy tricks used by some to lose weight. She stuck to a reduced carb diet, and she excercised daily. She managed to lose a little over ten pounds, and then posted the following retrospective to her journal:
Maybe I'm happy with my weight for now afterall. I think I will just relax for a while, continue to eat healthy and exercise and not obsess too much about losing more weight. There are other aspects of my life I would like to focus on anyway. I have made my diet and exercise a top priority over everything in my life but maybe I should rethink that. It's great to be healthy and feel good about how you look. There's more to life though. I've completly revised my body, I feel like I look really great in the mirror, and yet something is still not right. Like how they say money can't buy happiness... I think I'm finding out that being thin doesn't buy it either. All this time I thought it was all I wanted but I feel kinda empty, and it's not my stomach. :( "
I hope her enlightenment (pardon the pun) will inspire reflection in other Beautiful young girls who think that losing weight will make them happier people.
I must say ... your "unintended" pun cracked me right up. I've constantly turned to humor as a coping strategy when it comes to pain- and anorexia definitely meets the criteria of "pain" in my experience. So, needless to say; I truly appreciate your humor and it was what attracted me to this community initially. Thanks! ^^
As for me ... I'm harboring a strange tangle of Anorexia and Bulimia (though for almost two months now, I've not purged in any sense and DAMN am I proud). Anorexia for me has been a way to cope with a lot of things that'd occurred in rather a continuous succession over a four-year period ... Albeit a very stupid way to cope, but a way nonetheless. Emotionally, I've began trying to recover (been trying to get my mind off food and into the real world) so I can actually live a life without this neurotic tick sticking in my head. I'm still squirming around in a self-constructed web of dangerous weight loss and physical problems, but I have faith in myself to one day be able to live WITH anorexia as opposed to living against it (it is however, IN MY HEAD, and if anything I should have control there *laugh*). I know I'll never completely forget the anorexic mindset, so living in balance with what I've created seems the right thing to do. One day I'll be able to get close to, or at a healthy weight without feeling terrified and/or uncomfortable in my skin- "one day" in the not-so-distant future ... Before I attempt physical recovery I NEED to get myself in an emotionally safe place.
As I've gone on about this too long, I'll end this here before I start ranting *cackle*. I'm looking forward to talking with you all; it's wonderful that there are people standing up against the "pro" movement on the net. It absolutely devastates me to see girls teaching each other how to commit a slow suicide. (I've got to say, though, that I used to visit an ezboard community "PASS" where I made friends with a bunch of wonderful (suffering, but indeed wonderful) people ... the difference with PASS was that we tried to push each other into recovery, instead of actively destroying each others health. I'm still in contact with a couple of the girls I met there ... if only distantly).
Fuck. I did it again! You'll have to excuse my rambling ... I get carried away sometimes. lol
I'm anorexic. That said, I understand FULLY where you're all coming from, because I've seen friends of mine suffering from anorexia. But, the way the community tags are set-up, makes it seem as though you're AGAINST anorexics. Where in fact, you're AGAINST the disease.
Am I correct?
If you all say it's a disease, and can bitch and moan about society sucking, then don't put in the tagline, that you hate anorexics, who are nothing more than victims to this 'disease'.
If someone has cancer, do you hate THEM for having cancer?
The taglines really give off the wrong impression.
hi everybody.. i just joined the community.. im just about 17 now and ive struggled on and off with an eating disorder since i was nine.. im now in a "recovery period" i guess you would call it but its still hard and i sometimes miss that life (or lack their of) even though i know how awful eds are. but then i remind myself of all the things in life i get to expierience now, that i couldnt when i was in and out of hospitals ect. and all of the horrible aspects of living actively 'in' my ed. anyway im hoping to get to talk to some people who understand..
I just wanted to say hello, I guess you could call me your newest member. For being, what seems to be, a newer community I really like it. I am glad to see a community that is not based around pro-ana.( The BasicsCollapse )
I wonder what percentage of anti-ana people are just fat and jealous of skinny people? I know that when I was anti-ana I didn't know anything about it and I was skinny so I didn't need ana anyhow. But now I'm fatter so I'm pro-ana 'cause I know it can help me be thin again. Also, I now know more about ana. So that's my input today.
Are you interested in putting your point of view across for the purposes of a documentary? If you match the criteria below, please get in touch with the email address at the bottom of the article.
My name is Jo and I am a documentary film maker from London. I am in the process of gathering information and contributors for a documentary on the subject of pro anorexia. I do not want to judge anyone, pity them or tell them that they are crazy, I am just interested in all sides of the argument and the communities that have grown out of the websites that people have created.
I would like to hear peoples stories if they want to tell them. There is no obligation to take part and the film has not been commissioned yet so if you respond you are just talking to me. I am particularly interested in those who have lost a loved one, whether it be a family member or friend to an eating disorder where the individual was pro ana.
If you think you can help please feel free to email me at any time. This is a topic that I really want to get made into a film. One of my best friends had an eating disorder for many years and I saw the effect it had on her in so many ways.
I look forward to hearing from you in the near future.
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